Home

I moved four times during the first ten years of my life.

Orlando to Sherman

Sherman to Corpus Christi

Corpus Christi to San Antonio 

And then San Antonio to Houston.

After that, we moved three more times in Houston, from an apartment to a rented townhouse, and then finally to a townhouse that Mom purchased. 

This townhouse has been my home since I was fifteen years old.

So many memories, good and bad.

Recovering from multiple surgeries. 

Homebound school programs

Raising my dog Kasha

Proms

High school and undergraduate graduations

Getting ready for my sister's wedding

Even though I left to attend graduate school and then stayed in that city, the townhouse, and Houston,  has still been home. I came home often for weekends and for holidays. I often brought friends with me. Mom was always happy to have people visit. She was proud of her townhouse, and her patio of plants and roses.

Yesterday was my last night in the room that's been mine since I was fifteen years old. My last time making it up and down the stairs. My last time getting ready in my bathroom. My last time getting clothes from my walk in closet.

I have been extremely fortunate to have a room and a home to return to for so many years.

Now my mother is beginning a new life. She will have socialization and recreation, and she'll be closer to her family. It is a huge change. I have lived in the house for many years. And I have returned to that house. But it has been her house - for nearly forty years.

The only constant in life is change. Change can be sad. 

It can be scary.

But it can also be exciting. 

And wonderful.

I hope the next family has years of good times in Mom's townhouse. 

Survivor Season 47 Finale: My Thoughts (Spoilers)

But really how much of a spoiler is it? :)

Congrats Rachel!

Rachel dominated the last few weeks of the season, winning immunity challenges and leading the way to eliminate two strong players: Andy and Genevieve. She played her idol in a memorable tribal council when everyone but Sue was planning her ouster. She won the final immunity challenge, rewarded Sue's loyalty, and was able to sit back and relax as Teeny and Sam battled in the fire making challenge. Well, no one was able to relax during that. It was a nail biter!

Anyway, Rachel deserved to win. She became the fifth woman in Survivor history to win four individual immunity challenges. Sam tried hard to make his case to the jury, but for me he came across as condescending and too aggressive. He gave Rachel her props after she won, but during the interrogation he downplayed the importance of winning challenges. Of course he did, because he didn't win anything, except the fire making challenge. Getting to the finale doesn't mean that you deserve to be there, or that you deserve to win. 

Speaking of props, I want to express my admiration for both Sue and Teeny. No, they didn't win. But Sue won a challenge, almost won others, found an idol, was loyal, and that loyalty got her to the end. Teeny lost the fire making challenge, but I blame the wind, not her ability to keep the fire going. She should be proud of what she accomplished. And yes, Sam should be proud for not giving up, on himself or the fire he created. 

I also want to say that even though I was not a fan of Andy's or Genevieve's, I appreciated how strong and hard they played. They were fun to watch. 

And finally, a shout out to the men I was rooting for and mourned as each one was sent packing: Sol, Gabe, and Kyle. 

Looking forward to Season 48!

librarianintx

DWTS Finale: My Thoughts

 Yes, its been weeks. 

Oops.

Anyway, congratulations to Joey and Jenna on winning the season!

Overall, I wasn't a huge fan of the freestyles this season. 

Stephen and Riley's was my favorite, and the most memorable IMO. Joey and Jenna's was second for me. 

I thought Chandler and Brandon would win, and I'm sad for them that they came in third, although I'm happy for Ilona and Alan that they were runners up. 

As always, I love this show, and thoroughly enjoyed this season. 

I love witnessing the journeys and seeing the growth, as individuals, and as dancers.

Maybe next time I'll have to time to blog every episode. 

Until next season Dance Fans!

librarianintx

DWTS Finale: Who Will Win?

The finale starts in less 30 minutes, Dance Fans!

Who's excited?

I am very happy for the opportunity to watch tonight in person with my fellow DWTS fan, my Mom! 

For me,  only two contestants deserve to win the Len Goodman Mirrorball Trophy: Chandler or Joey. I will be happy if either comes in first.

Having said that, I'm also so pleased that Ilona is in the finale. 

These couples are some of the best pairings the show has ever had. I can't wait for the freestyle round!

Enjoy the show!

librarianintx 

DWTS Semi Final Part 2

Chandler & Brandon 

Foxtrot

OMG that looked SO professional!

Very sexy too!!

Intense indeed

Absolutely amazing

Her confidence is off the chart.

Yes, Carrie Ann, I saw her feet too.

I understand that you will give her a 9 because of that, but she deserves a 10, in my completely unprofessional opinion.

Scores: 9, 10, 10

Joey & Jenna

Paso Doble

Look out Chandler, here comes Joey!

His musicality is so amazing!

The choreography was perfect for the music

I agree with Derek. 

But Carrie Ann and Bruno are professionals too, so....

Scores: 9, 10, 9

Yay Derek!

Ilona & Alan

Viennese Waltz 

This partnership makes me cry tears of joy

Does she belong in the finale?

I don't know.

But my goodness how far she has come.

I feel honored too Carrie Ann.

I love you Ilona.

And I love you and Alan.

Ilona IS DWTS, finale or no finale

Scores: 10, 9, 10

Stephen & Riley

Tango

There were a few good moments, but the timing felt off to me.

Like the music was fast but they were moving slow.

Ok, I get it, they had an ocular wardrobe malfunction. 

Scores: 10, 9, 9

Huh. Okay. This is why I'm not a judge.

Danny & Witney 

Salsa

Okay the tricks were exciting. 

Definitely 

But where was Danny's dancing?

Where was the hip action?

Where was the Salsa content?

I think Witney makes him look better than he is, when it comes to the actual dancing.

Scores: 9, 9, 9

Maybe all 5 will make it to the finale?

Probably not.

I can't predict.

Eliminated: NO ONE!

Not 100% surprised, but 100% happy.

Ilona, you made it!!

librarianintx

DWTS Semi Finals Part 1

I'm back Dance Fans!

Trying to live blog (and multi task!)

We'll see how it goes.

Part One

Chandler & Brandon

Salsa

To quote Mary Murphy on SYTYD:

You get TWO FIRST CLASS TICKETS ON THE HOT TAMALE TRAIN.

That was a spicy routine, and I agree with Carrie Ann that there is a freedom and confidence in Chandler's dancing that she has cultivated during the season. 

But I also agree with Derek that it had more Cha Cha content than Salsa.

But still HOT.

Scores: 10, 9, 10

Joey & Jenna

It was a proper, professional looking Foxtrot.

Such amazing musicality and ease of movement 

I absolutely loved it.

Hollywood glamor.

But I do have to channel Len for a minute: They wasted time at the beginning of the dance.

Scores: 10, 10, 10

Ilona & Alan

Paso Doble

It had power, attack, conviction

She commanded that stage, and held her own against those professional dancers

Absolutely agree with Carrie Ann - She has had the biggest transformation and I am so glad she made it to the semi-finals!

Scores: 9, 10, 9

Danny & Witney

Viennese Waltz 

I'm sorry, but for me, that was not Danny's best dance.

The judges love him, but a VW requires flow and lightness, and Danny looked hesitant and a little clunky to me.

The choreography was beautiful and his partnering skills are strong, but the movement wasn't his best.

Scores: 9, 9, 9

Stephen & Riley

Cha cha

He's so adorable!

But his timing was off and he was clearly nervous.

He tried, but Latin dance is not his thing, at least not this time.

I love his attitude though!

Scores: 8, 8, 9

I'm going to post this so it doesn't potentially get erased.

librarianintx

DWTS Halloween Nite

Good evening Spooky Dance Fans!

Here's another attempt at live blogging.

Ilona & Alan

Tango

Can we talk about HOT she looked!

Wow

Looked like a proper Tango to me.

Rawr! Get it girl!

Scores: 8, 8, 8

Dwight & Daniella

Contemporary 

Boy was he in character!

So creepy good and intense

But was this more Daniella dancing and acting more than Dwight?

Anyway, I thought it was super

Gave me chills 

Lots of trust in this partnership 

I love them and I'm so happy for them.

Scores: 10, 9, 9

Danny & Witney

Argentine Tango

Seemed a little rushed, stumbly in the beginning,  but then it was fantastic! 

Tricks were outrageous.

He's such a strong partner.

Scores: 10, 9, 9

Sorry, but I think Carrie Ann missed the beginning of the dance. 

Jenn & Sasha

Contemporary 

It was good, intense

The extra dancers at the end were distracting and unnecessary (I haven't complained about that in awhile)

But really, they didn't add anything. 

Sasha and Jenn created the drama with their dancing and acting.

It should have been the two of them at the end.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Scores: 10, 9, 9

Wow, Carrie Ann is happy tonight. :)

Joey & Jenna

Argentine Tango

Scary hayride - nope

Great choreography and musicality!

Super good acting

They have amazing chemistry too

The music went so well with the dance

Scores: 10, 9, 10

Stephen & Riley

Contemporary 

Amazing intensity and athleticism!

Sweet little Stephen turned into a monster!

So dramatic, he was actually a little too convincing, but in a good way, if that makes sense

His best dance!

Scores: 10, 9, 9

Chandler & Brandon

Viennese Waltz

She is exquisite 

And fiery and passionate

Wonderful musicality

Beautiful and freaky

To me it looked like a dance from two professionals

Scores: 9, 10, 10

Carrie Ann: WTH?

Dance offs

Dwight & Daniella vs Ilona & Alan

Cha cha

Damn

That was a tie for me

Both had great technique and fun

I can't choose

Winner: Dwight & Daniella 

Jenn & Sasha vs Stephen & Riley

Salsa

I gotta give it to Stephen and Riley

They were exciting out of the gate and that was twirl lift was the bomb!

Winner: Jenn & Sasha

I respectfully disagree

Danny & Witney vs Joey & Jenna

Jive

Almost a tie, but I give the edge to Joey & Jenna

Winner: Joey & Jenna

Eliminated:Jenn & Sasha

This was a fantastic night.

All of the dances were first rate. 

Congratulations to all!

librarianintx 

Ranking the Contestants on DWTS

I don't usually do this until the finale, but here goes:

1. Chandler

Chandler has grace, beauty, musicality, and she can shake her booty. She adapts easily to different dance styles. After last night, we now know she has the fire and drive to win. Her Paso was amazing and I think she and Brandon deserved a 10.

2. Joey

Joey is so likeable and relatable, and also has great musicality. He's willing to go the extra mile to please the ballroom, including dancing shirtless and executing a back flip. I enjoyed last night's Samba, but his best dance so far was his Tango on Hair Metal Nite.

3. Danny

Danny's strengths are, literally, his strength, and his partnering skills. Plus he and Witney have formed such a close bond. There is so much trust in this partnership, such as when Witney flew off the stairs into his arms last night, and that insane move during their Rumba when Danny lifted her from the floor by her foot. 

But I agree with Bruno - He needs more confidence. He hesitates and waits for Witney sometimes. 

Those are my top contenders. 

The other four are harder to rank.

4. Jenn

Are she and Sasha dating?

I don't know, but they definitely have chemistry.

Exhibit A: That passionate Viennese Waltz. 

Jenn needs to dance like that if she's going to make it to finale night.

5. Ilona 

I LOVE her!

What a role model she is.

And I love her and Alan together. 

They create magic in the ballroom. 

I cried during her Rumba; I was so happy for her.

But I agree with the judges.

The tricks are exciting, but she needs to dance more.

6. Stephen

Stephen's athleticism is definitely his strength. And he and Riley have energy and exuberance out the wazoo. 

Absolutely his weakness is his timing. If he can fix that, he would move up in my rankings.

7. Dwight

It pains me to put Dwight at the bottom of my rankings.

Initially he was my favorite, and I still love him.

I'm with Derek - his smile lights up the ballroom. 

And I know he wants to do well.

Obviously his strength is an asset. 

But he needs to work on his steps.

I'm still hopeful for improvement. 

librarianintx 

Dancing with the Stars - Disney Nite

I'm trying something new tonight Dance Fans - Live blogging!

We'll see how this goes.

Instead of jotting notes, I'll type my reactions directly into blogger.

Big production number to start the night - Yay Aladdin and yay Mandy Moore!!

Oh Jasmine...I mean Julianne :)

Stephen & Riley

Charleston

Hercules

Look at those guns!

Enjoyed the tricks!

I think he still needs to work on timing.

Judges agreed with me, lol

Scores: all 8's

Jenn & Sasha

Rumba

The Little Mermaid

Needed more flow, was a little too choppy

Are they a couple??

Judges did not agree with me, sort of.

Carrie Ann said it was her best dance.

I think her VW was her best dance.

Scores: all 8's

Joey & Jenna

Samba

Tarzan

"Topless tribute to Tarzan" - love it!! LOL

Fabulous choreography!!

Loved it! So entertaining!

Scores: 8, 8, 9

Chandler & Brandon

Paso Doble

Zombies 2

Fierce!

That was Chandler saying "That Mirrorball is MINE!"

So powerful! Fantastic!!

Scores: all 9's

Phaedra &Val

Jazz

101 Dalmatians 

I saw some growth - sharper movements

Great sass.

But she still waits too much

Derek said the same thing!

Carrie Ann gave her some good advice.

Scores: all 8's

Danny & Witney

Jazz

Marvel

Fantastic choreography!

Hot damn on those tricks!

Super exciting and scary!

And a great song of course!

Amazing trust these two have

Scores: All 9's

Dwight & Daniella

Tango

Wreck it Ralph

I adore him

I think this dance was better

Hopefully he's on his way back

Scores: all 8's

Ilona & Alan

Jazz

Encanto

Go girl!

Still needs flow between the movements / tricks

Scores: 9, 8, 8 

Round 2

Group Dances

Team Roar

There was a lot going on!

It was fun but a little hectic

I agree with Bruno - not enough sync

I think they needed to keep it more simple, but I can understand the desire to use Dwight's height, Danny's strength, and Stephen's gymnastics.

Scores: all 8's

Team Goofs

They were better!

Still had excitement but also were in sync!

Great job!

Scores: All 9's!

Eliminated: Phaedra & Val

I think this was the right decision. 

But everyone needs to step it up.

Still, this Disney Nite was a lot of fun!

librarianintx 

Dancing with the Stars: Soul Train and Hair Bands Nites

Hello Dance Fans,

I'm going to discuss both nights because I'm so behind in my recaps. 

I thought I would love both nights. 

I am a big fan of both kinds of music. 

I was a hair metal girl in high school, although I didn't call it that at the time. 

I enjoyed Soul Train Nite better than Hair Metal Nite. 

I liked the music both nites. 

But the music on hair metal nite was so loud, so energetic, that I felt several of the couples fell short of the intensity and enthusiasm needed. 

Plus Gene Simmons was just....ew. Creepy and gross. And his scoring was terrible. Please don't have him back. 

On Soul Train nite my favorites were Ilona & Alan, Joey & Jenna, Jenn & Sasha, and Chandler & Brandon. 

I LOVED Ilona's look - the pink looked so pretty on her, and I loved her hair with bangs. 

I agree with Bruno - that was arguably the sexiest Viennese Waltz I've every seen. Jenn & Sasha were smoldering! Tiny rant though - Alicia Keys is a soul singer, but she's too young to be a Soul Train singer. Anyhoo...

I think the night belonged to Chandler & Brandon. They managed to Cha Cha to hip hop and make it look super cool. 

One more thing to say about Soul Train Nite - Brooks & Gleb. They hyped up the sex appeal of their dance SO MUCH that I didn't think it was that good or that sexy. I mean, they ARE hot together; they don't have to push it on us. And once again it took them too long to start dancing. Jenn & Sasha put the sex in Soul Train Nite without having to announce it. They just WERE sexy. 

As for Hair Metal Nite - I can say proudly that I knew all the songs :)

I also want to thank America for making the right decision on the voting by eliminating Eric and Reginald

Here is my take: 

I understand that DWTS is a popularity contest. 

It is NOT a dancing competition. 

And I'm fine with watching the celebrities who have no dance experience. 

But if you are going to be on a show like this - I want to see some growth, some improvement, some amount of trying. A week or two of your pro partner dancing around you while you stand there is...bearable. But if you can't do better than that, for whatever physical or mental reason - you should withdraw. It's not fair to the other contestants. I did feel very badly for Eric Roberts. He has wanted to be on the show for so long. But he just couldn't physically do it. 

Anyway, I feel that Joey & Jenna owned Hair Metal nite. Their Tango was sensational! Chandler & Brandon were very good also. 

librarianintx

Big Brother Season 26 Finale - My Thoughts (SPOILERS)

I am happy with who won, but I wish the vote had been closer. 

At the same time, I understand why it wasn't. 

I do think Chelsie was the mastermind, and she did influence some of Makensy's decisions, especially getting Leah out. 

Big Brother is a tough game to play. 

You get close to people, you form alliances, you are together 24/7, and then if you want to win the big money you often have to eliminate a friend, an alliance member, maybe even a crush, and take someone to the end who doesn't deserve to be there. 

I am so glad that Makensy chose loyalty and integrity over money. 

I hope she feels that she did the right thing. 

And I hope she is proud of the game that she played. 

This Texas girl is proud of that Texas girl. 

And I was thrilled to see two strong women at the end. 

I was not surprised to see Tucker win Favorite Houseguest.

I was happy that Quinn was in the top 3 for that prize. 

But Angela also being in the top 3?!?!?!

Look - I'm sure Angela is a very nice person. 

But in the Big Brother house, she was manipulative, paranoid, and a bully.  

Anyway, it was a very fun season. 

Congrats Chelsie, and thanks Big Brother!

librarianintx

 

October 10 was World Mental Health Awareness Day

I'm only two days late. :)

https://www.mentalhealthfirstaid.org/2024/10/ten-ways-take-action-world-mental-health-day/

Prioritize your mental health. 

Take it as seriously as your physical health. 

Because your mental health can impact your physical health in several ways. 

Self-care is an important part of mental health.

Too many of us self-sabotage instead of practicing self-care. 

click here to learn more about self-care: https://www.mentalhealthfirstaid.org/2023/05/25-small-powerful-ways-to-take-action-for-mental-health/?ref=moodfuel.org

Here are a few ways that I focus on self-care:

eating nutritious food

exercise

taking one day at a time

journaling 

focusing on gratitude 

making time for hobbies

What I need to work on:

hydration

sleep

setting boundaries

not procrastinating

Self-care is not selfish.

Self-care is important for a healthy, satisfying, fulfilling life.

librarianintx 

Big Brother Season 23: My Thoughts on the Top 3 (SPOILERS!)

 First of all, I have absolutely loved this season!

I was in a tv slump before the season started, but BB brought me out of that. 

I thought I would hate the whole AI thing, but it was pretty cool. 

What I loved most, though, were the contestants this season - this was an awesome group! 

Very diverse and entertaining!

Yes, my favorites are in the jury house (Quinn and Kimo) but I think Chelsie and Makensey both deserve to win. 

I hope they are sitting next to each other at the end. 

That will be a battle royale. 

Cam DOES NOT deserve to win. Point blank.

Luckily I am 95% sure that the jury agrees with me. 

Thanks for a super fun season Big Brother!

I'll be watching and rooting for the ladies tomorrow night.

And who do I want to win favorite houseguest?

My top 2 are Quinn and Kimo, of course. 

I also wouldn't mind if Chelsie, Makensey, or Cedric got the votes. 

I think Tucker might win, though. 

librarianintx

Dancing with the Stars Oscar Nite

Well, the next episode is going to air in less than an hour, so I better write my recap. 

And I'll have TWO to write this week!

Let's get the bad stuff out of the way first. 

Anna Delvey. 

The good news is - Bye girl bye!

She was not the worst dancer ever on DWTS.

But she by far had the worst attitude of any contestant. 

If you are trying to improve your image as a celebrity, you don't do it by acting cold and distant and closed off. She didn't give us any reason to give her a chance. The ballroom does not need her negative energy. This is our happy space. 

Now, moving on to the good stuff...

My three favorite dances of the night:

Dwight and Daniella's Foxtrot. 

Dwight and Daniella are my favorite couple so far. 

Dwight is like a gentle giant, and Daniella is his Tinkerbell. 

He is so big, but so graceful and light on his feet. 

Their dance was magical. 

Ilona and Alan's Salsa

I absolutely love their chemistry!

Their Salsa was athletic, exciting, sensual, and SO MUCH FUN!

And of course the song is from one of my all time favorite movies. 

I wish they had received 8's, but I understand that the transitions were a little clunky. 

Chandler and Brandon's Rumba

Chandler and Brandon are gorgeous together. 

The choreography was beautiful.

Overall, the performances were slightly underwhelming compared to week 1, but there was still plenty to enjoy. 

Can't wait for tonight!

librarianintx

 

Dancing with the Stars 2024 Week 1

Welcome back Dance Fans!

Who's excited?!

I can sum up the premiere episode in three words: Personality, enthusiasm, and chemistry!

The Powers-That-Be did an outstanding job with the pairings this season. 

Not every routine was stellar - it's week one. 

But pretty much every performance showed that the couples were already connected and cared about each other. 

Two couples tied for the top score. While Chandler and Brandon likely had the best dance from a technical standpoint, Dwight and Daniella's Salsa is the routine I can't stop watching. Not only did they have the song that can get just about anyone moving, their tricks were off the chain, and Dwight's enthusiasm got the ballroom going bananas. 

Speaking of enthusiasm, Stephen & Riley's Jive was a thrill ride. Their boundless energy, athleticism, and youthful exuberance should take them far this season. 

I was smiling for MOST of the episode. 

But a few times I wasn't. 

Three times to be exact. 

Gripe #1:

Reginald and Robert. 

Look, I get it. 

Reginald is 72 years old. 

Robert has injuries that are hampering him.

But at least DO something! 

I'm directing this more to Reginald. 

He's a former dancer. 

If you are going to be on the show, please do more than just stand there while your partner dances around you. 

You don't have to be good. But I would like you to at least try. 

Gripe #2:

Anna Delvey

Dancing with the Stars has certainly courted controversy before.

Cough! (Sean Spicer!)

Cough! (Rick Perry!)

But c'mon. She's a con artist. She should not be on the show. Period. 

Remember what I said about enthusiasm, personality, and chemistry? 

All of that vanished when Anna and Ezra performed. 

The routine was boring, and the ballroom went cold and quiet. 

The judges segment and chat with Julianne weren't any better. 

It was uncomfortable. 

It was not entertaining. 

Is this some kind of initiation for Ezra? Poor guy. 

I love the show, and I'm not going to boycott, but I think they made a mistake with casting her. 

We'll see what happens tonight. 

librarianintx

 

 

Health Tip #3: Self-care During Hard Times

This one is SO important y'all.

Self-care feels indulgent. 

You feel like you don't deserve it.

You tell yourself you don't have time for it.

You might feel guilty if you do it.

But self-care is imperative for health and wellness, especially during times of struggle. 

Too often our default mechanism is self-sabotage, especially during a crisis. 

Break that cycle. 

Make your physical and mental health a priority. 

The more you do it, the better you will feel, and likely you will be able to come through adversity more easily. 

I lost a friend two days ago. 

I am dealing with grief, and guilt and regret as well. 

Yesterday I felt those urges to self-sabotage. 

But I fought them. 

What is self-care? 

Self-care means focusing on the pillars of health.

Nutrition

Sleep

Exercise / movement

Spirituality

Social connection 

So yesterday I:

Exercised

Journaled 

Spent time with friends and talked to family

Watched a favorite show

Went to bed at a reasonable time

And...well...full disclosure...I did eat too much sugar.

So I didn't do everything right.

But I give myself grace for that. 

Because that is a big part of self-care too.

librarianintx

Health Tip #2: Growth Mindset

From Google:

Growth mindset: “In a growth mindset, people believe that their most basic abilities can be developed through dedication and hard work—brains and talent are just the starting point. This view creates a love of learning and a resilience that is essential for great accomplishment.”

For me, growth mindset means looking at problems or setbacks as challenges and opportunities, which is helping me build resilience. 

Something happened last week. I don't mean to be vague, but I can't go into detail about it. Suffice to say, I was upset and frustrated and felt that what was happening was unfair to me.

The situation made me feel stressed, and I felt it in my body as well as emotionally. This kind of stress is detrimental, physically as well as emotionally. Chronic stress can lead to heart disease, diabetes, and even cancer.

I knew that I could not change the situation. So I changed my mindset. I focused on the belief that everything happens for a reason. I found the silver lining in what was taking place. 

For my physical and mental health, I made the decision that I felt was right for me, and I moved on. In doing that, I felt resilient. 

Cultivating a growth mindset can be very beneficial.  It can take time and practice to develop a new way of thinking and processing events in your life.

It's worth the effort.

librarianintx

Health Tip #1: Mindful Eating

Today is the first post in a new series for this blog: Health Tips. 

I do research in my job pertaining to disabilities and conditions. 

I read articles, watch webinars, and learn about health and safety for people with disabilities and older adults. 

If what I write about helps at least one person, then I will feel good. 

Much of what I have learned about I am endeavoring to do in my own life. 

Creating healthy habits takes time, patience, and dedication. 

Today the topic is mindful eating. 

Here is an article on mindful eating:  https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/mindful-eating-guide#rationale

At it's core, mindful eating is about eating slowly and without distraction. 

It can help you enjoy your food, aid in your digestion, and limit overeating. 

I was born into a family of fast eaters. My family does not eat their food - they inhale it. I am always the last one at the table. In fact, sometimes family members are starting on their dessert while I'm still eating my main meal. This used to bother me when I was younger. I don't get upset now. I actually eat faster than I used to. 

When I eat alone, I tend to watch a show, or scroll through the Internet or social media. But I have noticed that when I do this, I don't enjoy my food as much. I'm not paying attention to what I'm eating. Sometimes I even look at recipes while I am eating! Afterward, I say to myself, "Why did I do that?"

So lately I am practicing mindful eating. And I am enjoying it. Mindful eating doesn't have to take a long time. It simply involves focusing on the taste of the food and enjoying the experience. I am cooking more than I used to, so I want to fully experience the smell, the taste, the look of the food that I prepared. I am also working on healthier, more balanced meals that look nice. For example, a homemade quesadilla with eggs, spinach or avocado, tomatoes, and cheese, and a side of blueberries is a healthy, filling, and tasty breakfast that looks attractive too. And it doesn't take a long time to prepare.  

librarianintx

Big Brother Season 26 Episode 9/12 SPOILERS!

 I didn't get to watch Thursday's episode until Friday. 

My Friday the 13th was fine - until Quinn walked out the front door. :(

Really Chelsie? You're going to believe something that Karen - I mean Angela - told you? 

I mean, yes, Quinn was a schemer. Angela could have been telling the truth. But she wasn't. And I think Quinn was right that breaking up the three person alliance would have been a good plan. 

So strange though - Angela planted a seed, got Quinn put up on the block, and then she voted for him to stay?!?! If Cam had not flipped, the vote would have been tied. I don't know what Chelsie would have done. 

Cedric and Quinn are my favorites. I like Kimo too. I hope one of them wins favorite houseguest, but it will probably be Tucker. 

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Big Brother Season 26 9/5 Episode SPOILERS

So Leah finally starts playing - by saving Angela?!?! Arrrggg!!!

I was okay with Joseph leaving. For me, he is a strange man that played a strange game. A super fan who threw competitions and was a follower? And he puts himself in a league with Dr. Will? Uh-uh.

But there sure were a lot of tears during the vote and eviction. These houseguests have bonded.

Quinn is still my favorite. He is playing a super fan's game. But I fear his HOH reign was quite detrimental. He burned his visionaries alliance with T'Kor and Kimo, and of course Angela and Rubina will come after him if they win HOH. Leah went against him by using the POV. Makensy is a maybe. Chelsie or Cam HAVE to win HOH. Or maybe some of these bridges can be repaired. 

Anything can happen in the BB house.

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Big Brother Season 26 Episode 9/1 SPOILERS

Okay, two things puzzle me about last night's noms...

I can understand T'Kor being upset about Quinn putting Kimo on the block. The three are supposed to be in an alliance. 

But T'Kor being mad about Rubina going up? Rubina is Tucker's girlfriend. Quinn isn't aligned with her. And Quinn told T'Kor he was doing it and she said that made sense.

But on the other hand, I think Quinn should have nominated Joseph instead of Kimo. Joseph had a final two with Tucker. He was loyal to Tucker. If you're nominating Tucker's girlfriend, wouldn't you nominate his man friend too? 

Hopefully all will be right in the Universe on Thursday, and Angela will walk out that front door. 🙏 

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Big Brother Season 26 8/29 Episode SPOILERS

Ah the mighty have fallen...

The house was absolutely right in getting Tucker out when they had the chance.

There are still lots of strategic, entertaining houseguests playing the game.

But Tucker sure was fun to watch.

I hope he'll be considered for an All Stars season.

But Tucker's elimination means that Angela is STILL in the house.

Manipulative, whiny, chaos -creating in a cringeworthy way Angela.

If she takes credit for instigating Tucker's elimination, I might throw my phone.

Chelsie and Quinn get those points. And T'Kor for putting Tucker up as a pawn.

Tucker irritated me sometimes. He was cocky. He sulked when he didn't get his way. 

But I was very impressed with his loyalty to Angela, even when she betrayed him.

And he accepted a punishment so T'Kor could get money, even after she put him on the block.

Tucker is a stand up guy.

I'm glad America rewarded him for his efforts as the AI Instigator.

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Goodbye to Oliver

I said goodbye to Oliver yesterday. 

But it was not a sad situation.

I was happy. And relieved.

I won't leave you in suspense any longer.

Oliver was my oxygen concentrator. 

Yes...I name my assistive devices.

I'm not the only one.

I've used oxygen with my bipap previously. Then my doctor adjusts the settings on the bipap, periodically runs tests and requests bloodwork,  and when my numbers are satisfactory,  I can say bye bye to the oxygen.

I know there could be another oxygen concentrator in my future.

For now, I'll revel in:

One less piece of medical equipment 

More space in my room

No piercing alarm when I turned Oliver on every night.

Oliver was helpful beyond providing breathing support.

His ironic gasps and wheezes covered up noises like loud neighbors and nocturnal thunderstorms.

Luckily I am not the super light sleeper that I used to be.

Oliver and I co-habited just fine.

I said a silent goodbye as the technician wheeled Oliver out.

Thank you for your service Oliver.

Now you are off to a new home, to help someone else.

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Anniversary

August 23, 1999

My first day of work as a professional librarian.

Twenty five years ago today.

I have learned so much in my job.

I knew so little about vision loss and visual impairments before.

I have had so many opportunities - to create documents, make presentations, conduct webinars, attend conferences, and even be a podcaster!

My work often doesn't feel like work because it is also what I am interested in - learning about technology, resources, organizations, health and wellness.

I am doing what I love to do - researching, sharing information, and helping people.

I am grateful every day for my job, and for the ability to work.

I am proud to be a librarian. 

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Big Brother Season 26 8/1/24 Episode SPOILERS!

Wow.

Um.

I agree with Chelsie - to an extent - that it would have been nice in a way to evict both Lisa and Angela.

Lisa is a lot.

But Angela - oh my goodness.

I'm disheartened to witness that a bully is still in the house and her victim was evicted.

I don't use the term bully lightly.

Name calling, mimicking, following, telling her the other houseguests felt the same way - straight up bullying. Should not be tolerated. And because she's still in the house, Angela is actually being rewarded for her behavior.

She bullied Matt - she stayed.

She bullied Lisa - she's still there.

She's close to bullying Quinn.

Who will be her next target?

I know it's a game, but Angela is making this an uncomfortable game for me. 

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Big Brother Season 26 7/25/24 Episode - SPOILERS!

Ugh!!

I did not want Matt to go.

I didn't want Angela to have that satisfaction. 

But I do understand that he was a big threat to win, so it made sense to take him out.

I just hope that was the motive, not that the majority of the houseguests were siding with Angela.

I still think she's toast.

No one will work with her after her tirades. Hopefully Kenny takes her out. 

I don't hate Angela. Not everyone is suited to play this game. 

From what I see, Matt is a good guy. His speech to the houseguests and his interview with Julie were heartfelt, respectful, mature, eloquent. He did not deserve what happened to him. Period.

At the same time, I like Kenny and Kimo, so I didn't want them to go either.

Finally, what the hell was Joseph doing after he cast his vote? His flirting with the mirror, or whatever that was, was amusing for a second and then got weird. He almost missed the vote reveal! Dude, that was awkward.

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Big Brother Season 26, 7/24/24 Episode - SPOILERS!!!

DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SPOILED!

BB fans - Whew! - The drama is starting EARLY y'all!

That was uncomfortable!

I feel so bad for Matt. 

He was playing the game. He did not verbally assault Angela. 

Angela was playing too hard, and got hella paranoid. Lack of sleep, the lights, the noise, her constant surveillance, alone in the HOH room - all of that has taken a toll.  

Houseguests can be rehabilitated, but when you snap as badly as she did - I don't think anyone will want to work with her now. 

Some people are just not able to handle the pressure cooker of the BB house. 

I'm not saying I'm a huge fan of Matt's, but I hope he can keep his cool and weather Storm Angela. Let the crazy train chug on by. Don't give her any ammunition to use against you. 

Buckle up BB fans!

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Survivor Finale - My Thoughts - SPOILERS!

I was moderately happy with the finale of Survivor Season 46.

I am happy for Kenzie. I liked her all season. I still think Charlie deserved the win as far as game play, but Kenzie beat the boys in the final Tribal Council. She played a fantastic social game, won two challenges, and made fire. That makes her worthy in my estimation. 

I am happy for Ben that he make it to the finale, and it was nice to see him win a challenge. I think Ben owes a lot to Kenzie. She got him through many nights as he struggled with anxiety and panic attacks. If the vote had been tied and Ben would have had to break it, I think he should have chosen Kenzie. 

Charlie looked devastated; I admired his grace and the way he accepted the situation. I'm not sure which hurt more - the fact that he lost, or that Maria voted for Kenzie. Intellectually I understand her decision - emotionally, I don't. 

Most of all, I am happy that Liz that did not make it to the end. I could say more...but I won't. 

Thank you, Season 46.  It was a highly entertaining season. I loved Tevin and Soda's camp songs, and Maria and Charlie dancing on the beach. I celebrated with Q, Tiff, and Kenzie when Yanu FINALLY broke their losing streak. It was a season of blind sides and people getting their torches snuffed with idols in their pockets. Season 47 will be here before we know it!

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Survivor Finale: My Predictions

Who WILL win?

Who SHOULD win?

Who do I WANT to win?

I'll answer the second question first.

In my opinion, either Maria or Charlie should win. They both have several wins. They have both made big moves. They have both played good social games. I will give Maria an edge in the big moves category, and Charlie an edge in the social game category. Either of them would be a worthy winner.

Now for the third question: Who do I want to win?

My parchment would say Charlie. But I will not be disappointed if Maria gets the win. I like them both. 

Now for the first question: Who will win?

There's too much game left to know. What I will predict is that the final Tribal Council will not have both Maria and Charlie in it. If Maria does not win the next immunity challenge, she is likely out. If she wins, then Charlie could be out. The friendship is still there I think, but the alliance is dead.

I like Kenzie and Ben, but I don't think either one of them deserves to win. If both Maria and Charlie are out though, then one of them will win, and my guess would be Kenzie. I love Kenzie for getting Ben through his anxiety and panic during his time on the island.

No comment on Liz.

Enjoy the show Survivor fans!

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Article: Fourteen Ways to Tell Someone You're Not Okay

https://www.verywellmind.com/things-to-say-when-youre-not-ok-8575276

How many times has someone - family member, friend, co-worker, stranger - asked you "How are you?" and your response has been "fine" or "okay"?

We all do it.

It is the standard response. 

How many times is it the truth? 

What can you say instead?

What you say can depend on many factors:

Who you are talking to.

How much you want to reveal, or not reveal.

How much time you have.

Your environment.

And other factors. 

Being honest about how you are feeling can help you process your emotions and feel better. 

But if you don't feel comfortable with the person, or the time and circumstances don't feel right, then the response and non-verbal cues you receive could make you wish you had just said "fine". 

This article provides helpful ideas on what you can say when you do want to talk about it and when you don't want to talk about it, depending on who are talking to (friends and family versus strangers). 

Hard times happen to everyone. 

Having a support system can be very beneficial.

And sometimes you can find support in places and people that you don't expect. 

When you choose to be vulnerable, you give people the opportunity to help. 

Plus, you might find that others are going through similar circumstances. 

Your journey could be an inspiration to someone else.

And their road could be a pathway for you. 

Also, for more information on how to get support, visit the "Turn To" site from Texas Health & Human Services: https://www.hhs.texas.gov/services/health/prevention/turn 

If you are in crisis, call or text 988 or for chat: https://988lifeline.org/chat/

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Day 28: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

And if we are talking about work - we have to talk about co-workers.

I have been lucky to have many wonderful co-workers during my years at the library. 

When you are in the customer service field, you bond with your co-workers. 

Especially when you are in cubicles in one big room. 

We help each other. 

In a variety of ways. 

We celebrate when someone completes a call with a difficult patron. 

We commiserate when someone has had to deal with a difficult patron. 

Even though we rarely get to meet our patrons, we still grieve when they pass away.

We tag team on certain requests - often when technology is involved. 

We'll scribble on a post it note and run to someone's cubicle - "I talked to her yesterday - check the notes field!" "Transfer him to me; I know what he wants" "Let her know I mailed her a packet last week"

We also have fun times at work 

Patron bingo

Games during the lunch hour

Making Valentine cards

Holiday luncheon with games and a white elephant gift exchange

Having the opportunity to work from home is one of the few benefits that came from the pandemic. 

But I am also happy on the days I'm in the office because I enjoy the camaraderie, support, and sense of purpose I share with my co-workers. 

Customer service / librarianship can be challenging. 

But also incredibly rewarding. 

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Day 27: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

"When you love your job, it doesn't feel like work."

I went to library school intending to work with children, either in an elementary school or public library setting. 

But for nearly twenty-five years I have worked for a regional library for the National Library Service for the Blind and Print Disabled. 

Helping people who are older, disabled, or have a chronic illness is my purpose. 

Connecting people to the information and resources that they need makes me fulfilled. 

And as a person with a disability, I am so fortunate to work for a state agency that values and supports people with disabilities. 

I am very proud of  where I work, and grateful for the opportunities my job has my afforded me.

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Day 26: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

 Well, I fell short of my goal. 

I did not blog every day during the month of March. 

I am grateful for my interest in and my ability to write. 

But I struggle with writing. 

When you have a chronic illness or disability, too often your energy gets spent getting through the day. 

Sometimes I'm too tired or overstimulated to organize my thoughts. 

I'm a night owl, so occasionally I'll get the urge to write late at night, but if it's a week night I know I have work the next day. 

If only I could get myself up in time to write in the morning. 

Sometimes writing is cathartic for me. 

Other times I want to pull my hair out. 

But I'm always grateful to have that outlet. 

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Day 25: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

I am also grateful for curiosity. 

Again, sometimes I struggle with fatigue and health issues. 

It can take mental energy and concentration to learn something. 

Life long learning is important. 

It keeps you engaged.

Focused.

It's good for your emotional and physical well-being. 

Curiosity and learning are important to keep your brain healthy. 

Learning Spanish is something I am doing to keep my brain active. 

I am also trying to sight read braille.

I still want to learn sign language. 

My current main reading interests are the British Royals, especially the Tudor era. Also the Romanov family in Russia. 

I do Wordle and Blossom pretty much daily. 

Sometimes Sudoku.

A new interest of mine is cryptograms. 

Also word puzzles and regular puzzles. 

Sometimes the games make my brain hurt. 

But in a good way. :) 

It might be cliche, but it's true: You are never too young to learn something new.

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Day 24: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

Today I am grateful for my persistence. 

I guess I've always had a certain amount of persistence.

I graduated from high school, college, grad school. 

I live independently and have a job. 

But when I was young, if I didn't know how to do something, or didn't think I could physically do something, I wouldn't even try. Someone else, usually my mother, would do it for me. 

Now, I try on my own first. 

I've learned how to read directions (mostly).

I know how to google. 

YouTube is a great resource. 

And if it's something physical, I try a few times, and sometimes I can actually do what I'm trying to do. 

And that feels fantastic. 

Persistence is great.

It makes you feel proud of your accomplishments. 

But you also have to be realistic. 

And make sure you don't hurt yourself trying to something physical. 

A few examples:

I can't open pop top cans. Even with the gadgets that supposedly make that easier. I just don't have the arm strength. 

I don't use ladders. I know it's not safe for me. I'll use a one step stepstool, but that's it. No climbing. 

Don't get me started on child proof medicine bottles. 

And bottles of milk. 

And salad dressing.

And olive oil with the inner seal you have to pull off.  

Anyway... 

A few weeks ago I put together a holder for my phone. 

It was very simple, only three parts. 

Still, I struggled. 

But I did it!

Last night I needed a new nasal spray.

One of those where the container is ensconced in a tomb of heavy plastic. 

I pulled and tugged and cut the plastic with manicure scissors. 

Took me awhile. But I did it. 

Persistence can take energy and concentration that sometimes I don't have. 

I'm also grateful to have a roommate who will help me when I can't do something. 

Important point: Needing help and asking for help is absolutely FINE.

Everyone needs help sometimes.

But it feels awesome when I can do it myself.  

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Day 23: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

Before butterflies, I had another favorite animal. 

I still love elephants. 

You can love more than one thing at a time. 

When I was young, my mom, sister, and I each chose something to collect. My mom picked turtles, my sister decided on clowns, and elephants were my choice. I'm not sure why, really. But they are still close to my heart. 

I've been fortunate to have some close encounters with elephants. 

I have ridden on an elephant twice, at the Renaissance Festival. Short rides both times, just a meander around an enclosure, but still very exciting. Their ears and trunks flapped, I could feel their wrinkly skin, and I remember shutting out my fear of heights and reveling in the experience. 

Then in 2022 three friends and I went to the elephant experience at the Preserve in Fredericksburg. We helped give an elephant a bath, learned about their care, watched them paint and eat, and took pictures with them. It was one of the coolest things I've ever done. I recommend it and I would do it again. 

The elephant in the photo painted the picture that I'm holding. 

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Day 22: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

I'm not a fan of insects. 

But I love butterflies. 

They are my spirit animal. 

They are so beautiful. 

So delicate. 

But they know how to soar. 

A butterfly undergoes a lot of changes during its very brief life. 

That cycle is a metaphor for the metamorphosis that humans experience. 

"You do not just wake up and become the butterfly. Growth is a process" Rupi Kaur 

“Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well.” — Naya Rivera

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Day 21: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

This is Trish.

I still don't understand why the pictures are sideways. 

I lost the first post I wrote trying to fix it.

Anyhow - Trish is my Trilogy ventilator.

Thanks to her, I have more energy, less fatigue, better concentration, and I get sick less.

I used to wake up with morning headaches and have fatigue and brain fog. A sleep study showed that my oxygen dipped down to dangerous levels during sleep.

Unfortunately Trish is a hefty, bulky girl, which makes travel more difficult. But she also has an 8 hour battery that helps when the power goes out.

I am grateful for her.

Some of you might be wondering if I have a gender bias when it comes to my medical equipment. But I don't. I have an oxygen concentrator named Oliver. And a cane named Cobalt. But we are hoping if Trish can keep me well-ventilated at night, we can send Oliver off to help someone else.

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