Antidepressant Part 2

This isn't a further political rant. 

I want to talk about something that I didn't expect my antidepressant to help with. 

It wasn't on my radar at all. (unintended pun) 

Antidepressants help with depression and anxiety. 

I didn't know they can also help with phobias. 

I have had a severe weather phobia for as long as I can remember. 

I know I have blogged about it previously. 

Was it a coincidence that my phobia improved when I started taking the antidepressant? 

I don't think so. 

My weather phobia made my life very difficult at times. 

Living in Texas, severe weather can happen year around. 

I would obsessively check weather forecasts, worry for days, and go to great lengths to make sure I wasn't alone during a storm. 

It was exhausting, frustrating, and negatively affected my physical and emotional health. 

I am not cured of my weather phobia, but it is SO MUCH better. 

I don't check forecasts like I used to, and I understand that forecasts can change, so there is no reason to worry days in advance. 

I rarely have the physical symptoms like a racing heart, restlessness, and feelings of fight or flight. 

I have finally learned to feel safe. The wind can howl and the rain can beat on the windows, but I know I am protected, even if I am alone. 

Weather doesn't rule my life anymore, and I am grateful every day for the calmness I can experience, even in the height of a storm. 

librarianintx

Antidepressants

 I don't usually get political in my posts. 

Not because I don't want to. 

I refrain for professional reasons. 

But a recent topic has spurred me to act. 

Transparency is important. 

Representation is important. 

Honesty is important. 

May is Mental Health Awareness Month. 

So here goes. 

I have lived with anxiety my whole life. 

About five years ago I started taking an antidepressant. 

The effect has been life changing. 

I wish I had made the decision years ago. 

I would have lived so much easier and fully. 

My antidepressant medication has dramatically improved my anxiety. 

I can do so much more than I used to.

I am grateful for it every day. 

Now our government has begun a campaign to "deprescribe" SSRI medications. 

This initiative includes financial compensation for doctors who work with their patients to reduce or discontinue antidepressant medications. 

I understand that antidepressants are not for everyone. 

There are usually side effects with these meds, especially in the beginning. 

Sometimes it takes a while to find the right medicine at the right dose. 

But for many, these medications mean a fuller, happier life with achievements they hadn't thought possible. 

While I am a proponent of these meds, I am also a firm believer in holistic treatments and lifestyle activities to alleviate depression and anxiety. 

Yoga, Tai chi, meditation, acupuncture, breathwork, art, music, journaling, exercise - all fantastic and helpful for overall health and wellness. For some people, these might be all they need. 

But many other people need pharmaceutical intervention.  

What works for me is a combination medication and lifestyle activities. 

I take a medication, and I also exercise, journal, listen to music, draw, etc. 

These medications are all legal. 

Doctors are allowed to prescribe them. 

Patients are allowed to take them. 

The decision to taper or stop should be in the hands of the patient, not the government. 

Period. 

librarianintx

Dealing with an acute illness when you have a chronic illness or disability

I'm speaking for myself. 

Not all people with a chronic illness or disability

I have a very hard time with self-care when I have an acute illness. 

The general advice when you have an acute illness is to rest. 

Give your body time to recover. 

But resting can make me weaker. 

If I lay down too much, it takes me longer to get my strength back. 

If I sleep too much during the day, I mess up my sleep cycle. 

I've been exercising more consistently recently. 

And now, after only a few days of not exercising, I feel like I'm losing those exciting and important gains. 

I try to find a balance between getting some extra rest without losing strength when I'm sick. 

There's also the topic of over-the-counter medications. 

I am an adult who is very underweight, and I can't swallow most pills. 

So, I buy medications intended for children. 

I bought two varieties of pain reliever this time - chewable tablets, and liquid. 

Both were problematic. 

Even when I managed to cut through the wrapping and open the (expletive) childproof cap, the liquid was in a bottle that you had to squeeze to get the medicine out. Even when I squeezed as hard as I could, I only got a few drops at a time. I need 15 ml per dose. That's the equivalent of about 3 teaspoons. (Don't be impressed. I googled it.) 

The chewable tablets come in those blister packs. If you try to punch a hole in them with scissors or a knife, you're going to break the tablets into smithereens. I have to patiently tug on the corners of the blister pack, peel back the foil that DOES NOT want to peel, and work to get the tablets out of their little hole. Three of them per dose. 

My five-year-old great nephew would probably be more successful than I am with these childproof meds for children. 

Struggling with opening meds when you're sick is SO frustrating. 

At least the cough drops are easy to open. 

Please don't put those in a blister pack. 

librarianintx

Survivor 50 Finale: My Thoughts

 Honestly, I'm conflicted. 

So many people are saying that Abry deserved it. 

She played the best game.

But did she? 

Did she play a better game than Jonathan? 

That's what I'm struggling with. 

I think they were both strategic.

I think they both made big game moves. 

I think they both fought hard and made good points in the final tribal council. 

Abry only won ONE immunity challenge. 

But it was the last one. 

Arguably, the most important one. 

I think Abry was well-liked by the jury. 

Jonathan, not so much. 

We don't get to see what goes down at Ponderosa. 

We aren't privy to conversations and strategizing. 

Is it a disappointing season when the person who wins the show only wins one challenge?

I'm a huge fan of Cirie, and she never wins anything. 

I was thrilled that she won the fan vote. 

So why wasn't I thrilled that Abry won? 

In one sense, it's cool that someone can win without being a competition beast. 

The goal of Survivor is to "outplay, outwit, and outlast"

You don't HAVE to win challenges to accomplish that. 

One of my other favorite players of all time is Cochran. 

I think the only challenge he won in his two seasons was a gross food eating challenge. 

Yet he played a masterful game and won by a unanimous vote the second time that he played.

So, is it a popularity thing for me? 

Am I not thrilled that Abry won because I like Jonathan better? 

All I can say is that I think Jonathan played a better game. 

I also think he presented a strong case at the final tribal council. 

I was surprised and disappointed that he only got three votes. 

I liked many of the players this season: Cirie, Jonathan, Joe, Kamilla, Kyle, Q, Mike, Charlie, Kyle, Tiff, Cody

It was a fun season. 

librarianintx 

 

Survivor 50: Who will win? Who should win?

I'm down to the wire here.

Who will win?

I don't know. 

If Tiff can make it to final 3, I think she should win.

There are rumors, though, that Abry takes it.

As long as it's not Rizzo, I'll be okay with the results. 

But I am Team Tiff.

Jonathan would be my second choice.

So many players that I like came back for 50, so there were some tough eliminations.

Let's see how it plays out!

Librarianintx