Hudson and Connor

In these trying times, the universe has sent us Hudson Williams and Connor Storrie. They are the stars of the Crave / HBO Max breakout show Heated Rivalry, about rival hockey players who (spoiler alert) fall in love.

The show is great.

I haven't read the book series that the show is based on, but I plan to.

Both Hudson and Connor are so charismatic, so engaging, not to mention so fricken hot. I love watching interviews with them. Their humor is effortless. They are personable and thoughtful. They are an interviewer's dream.

Separately they are a joy; together they are beyond that. Their chemistry is as strong offscreen as it is onscreen. They are men who are fearless in their friendship and affection for each other. Their bromance is addictive. They complete each other. 

Both of them are coping with their sudden fame brilliantly, at least in public. I hope becoming famous doesn't ruin them, as it has so many others. They are both so ridiculously talented. I hope they can navigate the complicated waters of fame with their integrity, sanity and friendship intact.

I'm grateful for them and I hope they both have long, successful careers. In this time of uncertainty and concern, Hudson and Connor are two of my delightful distractions. 

librarianintx 

John Davidson MBE and the BAFTA's

I'm going to say make a few comments about the controversy:

First, if you think he said the expletive on purpose, you need to educate yourself about Tourette Syndrome, specifically coprolalia, which is a tic disorder associated with Tourette. 

Number two, why was the expletive not bleeped or covered up? It was not a live broadcast. They took out "Free Palestine " from an acceptance speech, but not THAT?!

Number three, I think Mr. Davidson should have apologized. He should have apologized for the EFFECT that the word had. I didn't feel this way initially, but after reading some comments from other people with disabilities, I came to a different conclusion. 

Someone with epilepsy posted that they hit someone while experiencing a seizure. They apologized, even though there was no intent to harm

Something similar happened to a man whose CPAP machine malfunctioned during the night. He thrashed around, unable to breathe, and smacked his wife accidentally. 

Someone with cerebral palsy also posted about accidentally hitting someone. They apologized. 

Words can hurt too. They can cause trauma. 

Mr. Davidson's comments were about himself - his gratitude to those who understood his comments were not intentional. No mention about the effect that word had - on the presenters onstage, people in the audience, and those who viewed the broadcast. 

I'm not suggesting he apologize for having a disability. I'm asking him to think about that word in particular, it's history and significance in our society.

Lack of intent doesn't always mean no pain was inflicted.

librarianintx 

Driving with a Disability

If there is one piece of advice that I can give parents of kids with disabilities, it is this:

Let them learn how to drive.

Not only let them

Encourage them to learn how to drive

Don't let fear stop them, or you.

Yes, driving carries a certain amount of risk.

But so do many aspects of life.

Driving affords people with disabilities agency and independence.

They can go where they want, whenever they want, for as long as they want, with whoever they want.

Give them these important opportunities. 

They will live smaller with more stress if they have to rely on paratransit. 

And if they are wheelchair users, options like ride shares are limited. 

So, please, do what you have to do.

Research specialized driver's Ed if that's what they neeed.

Research funding options for vehicles and adaptive equipment

Start a savings account when they're born.

Know that if they are working or going to school, more funding options are available to them.

Encourage them to put in the effort.

They will thank you by having a busy, happy, enriched life.

The kind of life that everyone deserves.

librarianintx 

Allison and Twitch

Allison Holker and Twitch Boss, both alumni of the show So You Think You Can Dance, were married and appeared to have the perfect life - they were madly in love, successful, raising children - they were living the American Dream. 

Then Twitch died by suicide at the age of 40. 

He was a beloved celebrity - always smiling, always dancing - the picture of mental and physical health. 

Allison was devastated, and society rallied around her - the devastated widow with a teenager and two young children to raise alone. 

Then Allison wrote a memoir, that in part detailed Twitch's mental health struggles, drug use, and suggested that Twitch may have been a victim of sexual abuse. 

Many fans turned against her, saying she had no right to expose Twitch's life, and that she was trying to profit from his pain. Twitch never spoke publicly about any of this. 

Now Allison has announced that she is engaged. Her fiancé proposed to her on her birthday. She called it "the best night of her life" and gushed about him being her person. 

Again, the fans took to social media to express their outrage, saying she should have been more restrained in her enthusiasm, thinking about her late husband. 

It is a very complicated situation. I can see both sides. 

I believe with all my heart that Allision deserves to be happy. I am glad she has found another love. Life is short. I don't believe that someone has to grieve for the rest of their life to show that they love someone. You can feel grief and joy simultaneously. 

Still, as a fan of Twitch, who feels like I will never fully process his death, I do understand the pain that the fans are feeling. But do we have a right to feel this way? None of us knew the "real" Twitch. We know the Twitch that he presented to the world. And that Twitch was likely both perfect and flawed, as we all are. 

And Allison and Twitch's marriage was likely both wonderful and difficult as well, as most marriages are. Look at Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban. They presented to the world an image of two people enjoying a long, happy marriage. Keith always looked completely in love with Nicole. And now they are divorced. Do we the fans truly know what happened? No. Is it our business? Definitely NOT!

Consider also the story of Ekaterina Gordeeva and Sergei Grinkov. They were figure skaters, married and madly in love. Sergei died suddenly in 1995 of an undiagnosed heart condition. In 2002, Ekaterina married skater Ilia Kulik and they had a child. Ekaterina had two great loves. I thought she and Ilia were still together. But no, they divorced in 2015, and five years later she married David Pelletier. She is still married to him. So, my point is, you can have more than one love in your lifetime. 

I still grieve for Twitch, even though I didn't know him personally. But my grief doesn't matter in this situation. As happy as she is now, I am certain that Allison still grieves too. I am glad she has found someone that makes her happy. I do not believe that anything she has done was done with the intention to hurt Twitch or besmirch his memory. In the end, you either believe in the goodness of someone, or you don't. I believe in Allison. 

librarianintexas

More Thoughts on the Olympics

The focus is so much on the medals.

Especially who wins gold.

But sometimes, the Olympics are about more than who stands on the podium.

Sometimes it's about falling down.

And getting back up.

Its about resilience 

Redemption

Facing failure

And trying one more time

To be the best that you can be

Even if the result isn't being named the best in the world.

Congratulations Amber Glenn.

You put Tuesday's disappointment behind you.

And you slayed that Free Skate.

You showed us what it means to never give up.

librarianintx 

The Olympics

I enjoy watching the Olympics.

Summer and Winter.

I get nervous sometimes when I want a favorite to win the gold.

I think competition can be good.

Competition pushes you to work and do your best.

But I feel sad when athletes win a medal and are devastated when the medal isn't gold.

Expectations put too much pressure on these athletes.

Expectations from experts in the sport.

From family and friends. 

From social media

From the athletes themselves 

Obviously, everyone wants to come in first.

They train for years

Make a lot of sacrifices

They don't do all of that to "settle" for second or third

But it's interesting to see how athletes react to what medals they win.

Last night the American ice dance team cried because they won the silver medal. They were disappointed. They were favored to win gold.

Meanwhile, the Canadian team cried tears of joy because they won the bronze. Their level of expectation was lower. They had less pressure to win gold.

In 1998, figure skater Michelle Kwan won the silver medal at the Olympics. In response to people consoling her, she replied, "I didn't lose the gold. I WON the silver." 

That is the pride and resilience I want to see.

However, at the 2002 Olympics, Kwan won bronze and cried tears of disappointment. 

She found success in silver, but failure in bronze.

Intellectually, I understand this phenomenon.  But on an emotional level, I feel sad that anything less than gold for some athletes means they are less than.

librarianintx 

More Thoughts on Bad Bunny's Halftime Show

I read a lot of comments on social media last night.

There wasn't any, "Well, it was okay."

People either loved it or hated it.

Not surprising, given the current division in our country. 

I think the people who wanted to hate it, did hate it.

They found things to complain about.

But I think that Bad Bunny could have given those people a lot more to bitch about, but chose not to.

Because his intention was to entertain, not to disgust or to shock.

There were rumors he might wear a dress.

He didn't. 

There were rumors he might kiss a man.

He didn't 

His female dancers were sexy and they certainly moved their bodies.

But there were no bikinis, no thongs showing, no boobs out. 

Others might argue with me.

But I thought it was tasteful.

There were two brief moments of men dancing together, but they were blink and you'll miss it encounters.

The only kissing was between a heterosexual couple, during an actual wedding ceremony!

And for all the people complaining about the Spanish - y'all, he threw you a bone. A big one - an uber-popular, immediately recognizable, straight, lovely, (occasionally blond) woman named Lady Gaga - who sang in English! 

So honestly, what was there to complain about? What was controversial? 

If you don't like his music, okay, fair enough.

But to say it was the worst halftime ever?

Please.

I remember when Justin popped Janet's boob out, everyone was screaming that the halftime show should be family friendly. That children are watching. 

How would you rate Bad Bunny's show on a family friendly scale?

I would rate it highly.

Again, no super suggestive clothing or gyrating.

There were scenes depicting family life, community, celebrations, inclusion, unity.

I think young children would be interested in the scenery, the men on the utility poles, the flags.

The show was colorful. 

There was a lot to take in.

I think about when you go to the opera (for those that do). Many operas are sung in a foreign language. So you dont know what the characters are saying. But the emotion in the music plus the movements on stage are what connects you to the performance. The feeling  tells the story. And that's what Bad Bunny's halftime show did for me.

If it didn't work for you. I feel bad for you.

You missed out on fifteen minutes of what this country desperately needs.

Joy.

Bad Bunny's Halftime Show: My Thoughts

I have been using Duolingo for over a year to learn Spanish.

I'm improving on reading and somewhat on comprehension, but I still can't speak the language. 

When it comes to Bad Bunny's performance at the Superbowl, my learning Spanish did not help me. I could not understand what he was saying.

But that didn't bother me. Because for me, his show was much more about FEELING than about knowing a language and song lyrics. 

This was a celebration of country, culture, people, history. This was about joy, pride, honor, respect. This was about family and generations. 

It was also about dance.

And it was about inclusion. His special guests were Lady Gaga and Ricky Martin - two worldwide superstars - one of them an LGBTQ+ ally and the other an out gay man.

At the end of the performance, Bad Bunny was reciting the countries that are part of the Americas. Again, it was about inclusion. America is about more than the 50 states and the District of Columbia. People born and raised in the US territories are Americans too. 

Focus on what unites us - the international language of music - not what divides us.

librarianintx 

Grammy's

I told myself I wasn't going to stay up to watch the whole show.

But I did.

Here were my favorite moments, in no particular order:

Trevor Noah killed it as always as host. I'm sad it was his last time to host.

Nikki Glaser and Teyana Taylor's presenter banter. Also, can we talk about Teyana's dress?! FIRE!!

Both of Bruno Mars' performances. He got everyone up and dancing. And he's FINE!!

Lady Gaga's performance. Mother Monster slayed yet again.

Gaga, Bad Bunny, and Billie Elish's acceptance speeches.

Quote of the night: "No one is illegal on stolen land" - Billie Eilish

Tribute to Roberta Flack - especially the Fugees part

Cher receiving a Lifetime Achievement award.

librarianintx 

A Few More Brain Gains and Drains

I discovered a third page to the list:

Brain Gains:

Music making: singing, playing

Art: color, paint, collage, pics

Visualization or vision board

Brain Drains:

Anxiety / PTSD

Epilepsy,  seizures, schizophrenia 

Taking meds that slow the brain

Trauma / stress in earlier life

3rd shift work / sleep issues

Balance issues

Family history of Parkinson's,  Alzheimer's, MS

librarianintx 

Brain Gains and Drains

Happy New Year!

New year, new you!

That's what many of us attempt to do.

In recognition of that, here is a list of activities / things that are helpful for your brain, and a list that can cause adverse effects on your brain.

Brain Gains:

exercise

healthy diet

healthy bowel / gut

meditation / yoga / tai chi

mental exercises

gratitude lists / journaling

learning new tasks

oral health

water intake

vitamin D

vitamin B and Magnesium

massage / acupuncture / vibration

intermittent fasting

healthy sleep hygiene

humor / laughter

low light therapy

hearing aids

social engagement

essential oils

volunteering

music

Brain drains:

regular exposure to molds

heavy metals

Lyme disease

stress

surgery with anesthesia

withdrawal / not being social

poor sense of smell

constipation

untreated hearing loss

hospitalizations

pesticides

rural / well water exposure

melanoma

head injury

alcohol / drugs

chemo

excess weight

smoking

diabetes

menopause

depression

high blood pressure

What do you think of this list? 

Do you agree with everything?

I think intermittent fasting can be beneficial, but for some people with certain chronic health issues it can cause problems. 

What brain gains have you incorporated into your life? 

Which ones can you add, or improve upon?

There are several that I need to do better with:

oral health

water intake

And I'd like to do more meditation. 

librarianintx