Big Brother Season 26 7/25/24 Episode - SPOILERS!

Ugh!!

I did not want Matt to go.

I didn't want Angela to have that satisfaction. 

But I do understand that he was a big threat to win, so it made sense to take him out.

I just hope that was the motive, not that the majority of the houseguests were siding with Angela.

I still think she's toast.

No one will work with her after her tirades. Hopefully Kenny takes her out. 

I don't hate Angela. Not everyone is suited to play this game. 

From what I see, Matt is a good guy. His speech to the houseguests and his interview with Julie were heartfelt, respectful, mature, eloquent. He did not deserve what happened to him. Period.

At the same time, I like Kenny and Kimo, so I didn't want them to go either.

Finally, what the hell was Joseph doing after he cast his vote? His flirting with the mirror, or whatever that was, was amusing for a second and then got weird. He almost missed the vote reveal! Dude, that was awkward.

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Big Brother Season 26, 7/24/24 Episode - SPOILERS!!!

DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SPOILED!

BB fans - Whew! - The drama is starting EARLY y'all!

That was uncomfortable!

I feel so bad for Matt. 

He was playing the game. He did not verbally assault Angela. 

Angela was playing too hard, and got hella paranoid. Lack of sleep, the lights, the noise, her constant surveillance, alone in the HOH room - all of that has taken a toll.  

Houseguests can be rehabilitated, but when you snap as badly as she did - I don't think anyone will want to work with her now. 

Some people are just not able to handle the pressure cooker of the BB house. 

I'm not saying I'm a huge fan of Matt's, but I hope he can keep his cool and weather Storm Angela. Let the crazy train chug on by. Don't give her any ammunition to use against you. 

Buckle up BB fans!

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Survivor Finale - My Thoughts - SPOILERS!

I was moderately happy with the finale of Survivor Season 46.

I am happy for Kenzie. I liked her all season. I still think Charlie deserved the win as far as game play, but Kenzie beat the boys in the final Tribal Council. She played a fantastic social game, won two challenges, and made fire. That makes her worthy in my estimation. 

I am happy for Ben that he make it to the finale, and it was nice to see him win a challenge. I think Ben owes a lot to Kenzie. She got him through many nights as he struggled with anxiety and panic attacks. If the vote had been tied and Ben would have had to break it, I think he should have chosen Kenzie. 

Charlie looked devastated; I admired his grace and the way he accepted the situation. I'm not sure which hurt more - the fact that he lost, or that Maria voted for Kenzie. Intellectually I understand her decision - emotionally, I don't. 

Most of all, I am happy that Liz that did not make it to the end. I could say more...but I won't. 

Thank you, Season 46.  It was a highly entertaining season. I loved Tevin and Soda's camp songs, and Maria and Charlie dancing on the beach. I celebrated with Q, Tiff, and Kenzie when Yanu FINALLY broke their losing streak. It was a season of blind sides and people getting their torches snuffed with idols in their pockets. Season 47 will be here before we know it!

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Survivor Finale: My Predictions

Who WILL win?

Who SHOULD win?

Who do I WANT to win?

I'll answer the second question first.

In my opinion, either Maria or Charlie should win. They both have several wins. They have both made big moves. They have both played good social games. I will give Maria an edge in the big moves category, and Charlie an edge in the social game category. Either of them would be a worthy winner.

Now for the third question: Who do I want to win?

My parchment would say Charlie. But I will not be disappointed if Maria gets the win. I like them both. 

Now for the first question: Who will win?

There's too much game left to know. What I will predict is that the final Tribal Council will not have both Maria and Charlie in it. If Maria does not win the next immunity challenge, she is likely out. If she wins, then Charlie could be out. The friendship is still there I think, but the alliance is dead.

I like Kenzie and Ben, but I don't think either one of them deserves to win. If both Maria and Charlie are out though, then one of them will win, and my guess would be Kenzie. I love Kenzie for getting Ben through his anxiety and panic during his time on the island.

No comment on Liz.

Enjoy the show Survivor fans!

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Article: Fourteen Ways to Tell Someone You're Not Okay

https://www.verywellmind.com/things-to-say-when-youre-not-ok-8575276

How many times has someone - family member, friend, co-worker, stranger - asked you "How are you?" and your response has been "fine" or "okay"?

We all do it.

It is the standard response. 

How many times is it the truth? 

What can you say instead?

What you say can depend on many factors:

Who you are talking to.

How much you want to reveal, or not reveal.

How much time you have.

Your environment.

And other factors. 

Being honest about how you are feeling can help you process your emotions and feel better. 

But if you don't feel comfortable with the person, or the time and circumstances don't feel right, then the response and non-verbal cues you receive could make you wish you had just said "fine". 

This article provides helpful ideas on what you can say when you do want to talk about it and when you don't want to talk about it, depending on who are talking to (friends and family versus strangers). 

Hard times happen to everyone. 

Having a support system can be very beneficial.

And sometimes you can find support in places and people that you don't expect. 

When you choose to be vulnerable, you give people the opportunity to help. 

Plus, you might find that others are going through similar circumstances. 

Your journey could be an inspiration to someone else.

And their road could be a pathway for you. 

Also, for more information on how to get support, visit the "Turn To" site from Texas Health & Human Services: https://www.hhs.texas.gov/services/health/prevention/turn 

If you are in crisis, call or text 988 or for chat: https://988lifeline.org/chat/

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Day 28: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

And if we are talking about work - we have to talk about co-workers.

I have been lucky to have many wonderful co-workers during my years at the library. 

When you are in the customer service field, you bond with your co-workers. 

Especially when you are in cubicles in one big room. 

We help each other. 

In a variety of ways. 

We celebrate when someone completes a call with a difficult patron. 

We commiserate when someone has had to deal with a difficult patron. 

Even though we rarely get to meet our patrons, we still grieve when they pass away.

We tag team on certain requests - often when technology is involved. 

We'll scribble on a post it note and run to someone's cubicle - "I talked to her yesterday - check the notes field!" "Transfer him to me; I know what he wants" "Let her know I mailed her a packet last week"

We also have fun times at work 

Patron bingo

Games during the lunch hour

Making Valentine cards

Holiday luncheon with games and a white elephant gift exchange

Having the opportunity to work from home is one of the few benefits that came from the pandemic. 

But I am also happy on the days I'm in the office because I enjoy the camaraderie, support, and sense of purpose I share with my co-workers. 

Customer service / librarianship can be challenging. 

But also incredibly rewarding. 

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Day 27: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

"When you love your job, it doesn't feel like work."

I went to library school intending to work with children, either in an elementary school or public library setting. 

But for nearly twenty-five years I have worked for a regional library for the National Library Service for the Blind and Print Disabled. 

Helping people who are older, disabled, or have a chronic illness is my purpose. 

Connecting people to the information and resources that they need makes me fulfilled. 

And as a person with a disability, I am so fortunate to work for a state agency that values and supports people with disabilities. 

I am very proud of  where I work, and grateful for the opportunities my job has my afforded me.

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Day 26: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

 Well, I fell short of my goal. 

I did not blog every day during the month of March. 

I am grateful for my interest in and my ability to write. 

But I struggle with writing. 

When you have a chronic illness or disability, too often your energy gets spent getting through the day. 

Sometimes I'm too tired or overstimulated to organize my thoughts. 

I'm a night owl, so occasionally I'll get the urge to write late at night, but if it's a week night I know I have work the next day. 

If only I could get myself up in time to write in the morning. 

Sometimes writing is cathartic for me. 

Other times I want to pull my hair out. 

But I'm always grateful to have that outlet. 

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Day 25: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

I am also grateful for curiosity. 

Again, sometimes I struggle with fatigue and health issues. 

It can take mental energy and concentration to learn something. 

Life long learning is important. 

It keeps you engaged.

Focused.

It's good for your emotional and physical well-being. 

Curiosity and learning are important to keep your brain healthy. 

Learning Spanish is something I am doing to keep my brain active. 

I am also trying to sight read braille.

I still want to learn sign language. 

My current main reading interests are the British Royals, especially the Tudor era. Also the Romanov family in Russia. 

I do Wordle and Blossom pretty much daily. 

Sometimes Sudoku.

A new interest of mine is cryptograms. 

Also word puzzles and regular puzzles. 

Sometimes the games make my brain hurt. 

But in a good way. :) 

It might be cliche, but it's true: You are never too young to learn something new.

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Day 24: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

Today I am grateful for my persistence. 

I guess I've always had a certain amount of persistence.

I graduated from high school, college, grad school. 

I live independently and have a job. 

But when I was young, if I didn't know how to do something, or didn't think I could physically do something, I wouldn't even try. Someone else, usually my mother, would do it for me. 

Now, I try on my own first. 

I've learned how to read directions (mostly).

I know how to google. 

YouTube is a great resource. 

And if it's something physical, I try a few times, and sometimes I can actually do what I'm trying to do. 

And that feels fantastic. 

Persistence is great.

It makes you feel proud of your accomplishments. 

But you also have to be realistic. 

And make sure you don't hurt yourself trying to something physical. 

A few examples:

I can't open pop top cans. Even with the gadgets that supposedly make that easier. I just don't have the arm strength. 

I don't use ladders. I know it's not safe for me. I'll use a one step stepstool, but that's it. No climbing. 

Don't get me started on child proof medicine bottles. 

And bottles of milk. 

And salad dressing.

And olive oil with the inner seal you have to pull off.  

Anyway... 

A few weeks ago I put together a holder for my phone. 

It was very simple, only three parts. 

Still, I struggled. 

But I did it!

Last night I needed a new nasal spray.

One of those where the container is ensconced in a tomb of heavy plastic. 

I pulled and tugged and cut the plastic with manicure scissors. 

Took me awhile. But I did it. 

Persistence can take energy and concentration that sometimes I don't have. 

I'm also grateful to have a roommate who will help me when I can't do something. 

Important point: Needing help and asking for help is absolutely FINE.

Everyone needs help sometimes.

But it feels awesome when I can do it myself.  

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Day 23: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

Before butterflies, I had another favorite animal. 

I still love elephants. 

You can love more than one thing at a time. 

When I was young, my mom, sister, and I each chose something to collect. My mom picked turtles, my sister decided on clowns, and elephants were my choice. I'm not sure why, really. But they are still close to my heart. 

I've been fortunate to have some close encounters with elephants. 

I have ridden on an elephant twice, at the Renaissance Festival. Short rides both times, just a meander around an enclosure, but still very exciting. Their ears and trunks flapped, I could feel their wrinkly skin, and I remember shutting out my fear of heights and reveling in the experience. 

Then in 2022 three friends and I went to the elephant experience at the Preserve in Fredericksburg. We helped give an elephant a bath, learned about their care, watched them paint and eat, and took pictures with them. It was one of the coolest things I've ever done. I recommend it and I would do it again. 

The elephant in the photo painted the picture that I'm holding. 

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Day 22: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

I'm not a fan of insects. 

But I love butterflies. 

They are my spirit animal. 

They are so beautiful. 

So delicate. 

But they know how to soar. 

A butterfly undergoes a lot of changes during its very brief life. 

That cycle is a metaphor for the metamorphosis that humans experience. 

"You do not just wake up and become the butterfly. Growth is a process" Rupi Kaur 

“Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well.” — Naya Rivera

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Day 21: A Month of Birthday Gratitude

This is Trish.

I still don't understand why the pictures are sideways. 

I lost the first post I wrote trying to fix it.

Anyhow - Trish is my Trilogy ventilator.

Thanks to her, I have more energy, less fatigue, better concentration, and I get sick less.

I used to wake up with morning headaches and have fatigue and brain fog. A sleep study showed that my oxygen dipped down to dangerous levels during sleep.

Unfortunately Trish is a hefty, bulky girl, which makes travel more difficult. But she also has an 8 hour battery that helps when the power goes out.

I am grateful for her.

Some of you might be wondering if I have a gender bias when it comes to my medical equipment. But I don't. I have an oxygen concentrator named Oliver. And a cane named Cobalt. But we are hoping if Trish can keep me well-ventilated at night, we can send Oliver off to help someone else.

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